Abusive Relationships - Leaving

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The Good in Goodbye

Heartbroken and hurt
I stand facing myself
My feelings ground to dirt
No sense of my self worth

I stand facing the future
My path before me lies
To face the next adventure
With tears inside my eyes

The things I did for you
Just never were enough
So everything I'd do
Was met with hatred, rough

The things I did for me
Had become nonexistent
But now that I can see
I have become resistant

I am strong enough to withstand your lies
Strong enough, though my broken heart cries
The things I imagined were not mine at all
This house of cards was destined to fall

The person you were was only an act
Hiding who you are, but the facade's cracked
I stand here alone, standing straight on my own
Your lies, empty promises, I will dethrone

I stand straight and tall and think back with a sigh
I've finally found the good in goodbye


 

Go

Yet as I see it, and I ought to know
When you say stay, well then I needs must go
And at the moment now, I won't say "no"...


 

Abrupt Absonance

Just when you think that Life is getting better,
The tears are drying up and Hope is on the rise,
Just when you think that your life is getting better,
Something else will happen, that dream of new hope dies.

Just when it seems that Life's riding on an updraft,
Things are getting better and you're rising to the top,
Just when it seems that Life's riding on an updraft,
The wind dies down quite suddenly, Life's rise comes to a stop.

Just when I know that there's Hope around the corner,
Happiness is here again, the future glitters brightly,
Just when I know that Hope is waiting 'round the corner,
The building falls on top of me, the Future turns unsightly.

Just when I think that now I have a chance,
My future looks so tempting and I know that I'll succeed,
Just when I realize that I now have a chance,
There comes another danger sign that I can't help but heed.

I cannot live like this much longer, something gonna give,
My sanity is fractured and I don't know how to live,
My life fallen in pieces and I don't know what to do,
I cannot live like this, and yet I cannot live without you.

Just when I think that things are getting better,
Just when it seems everything will be alright,
Just when I think everything is getting better,
That's when the Demons come again, to end our upward flight.


 

Farewell

I have friends that truly love me
I have dreams that I can reach
I have happiness aplenty
Yet still feel need to beseech

That my happiness be giant
And my sadness die away
In its face I'll be defiant
As I smile towards the day

Nothing is as it appeared
A lesson I've learned well
The ending came from which I feared
But I have left my hell

Here my life is as it stands
And here do I stand too
My sadness turns to dust and sands
My farewell sent to you


 

Here I Stand Again

Here I stand again
On the brink of destructive tendencies
Trying to figure out
Where to find some solace on land or seas

What happened to my life today
That it would all work out this way?

Here I stand again
On the edge of all I know is true
Trying to figure out
Whether or not to stay with you

What happened to my life this year
That made me live in so much fear?

Here I stand again
On the rim of all my memories
Trying to figure out
If there's any truth in past glories

What happened to my life with you
That ended everything I knew?

Here I stand again
Facing forward towards my destiny
I have figured out
That I have to love and care for me

What happened to my inner soul?
Was killing it really your goal?

Here I stand again
Here I stand again, lonely as I was with you
Here I stand again, myself, alone, and without you
Here I stand again, alive


 

Universal Truth

There's Truth within the universe
For those who care to see
It sometimes helps and sometimes hurts
And it will always be

The truths I've learned I wish were false
The dreams I dreamed I wish were true
But we are only what we are
Learning, growing, each day new

And so I need to say goodbye
To what I had, or thought I had
And I must learn to let him go
And that this change may not be bad

To lose a dream, to keep a friend
I'd rather that than lose them both
And where I stand, in my life now
Decisions always lead to growth

So let the friendship grow again
Stronger than it was before
And let go now of dreams once held,
For who knows what life has in store?

He has the right to live again
And I hold that same right, as well
And what may come in future times
Who can know?  And who can tell?


 

Letting Go

It's all a dream, it's our perception of reality
We can't let go, but we must leave our dreams behind
We must let go, we must admit our chance of fallacy
In letting go, who knows what great adventures we will find

 

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